Because the back of my mind is holding things I'm relying in

I just wanna run to you
And break off the chains, and throw them away
I just wanna be so much
And shake off the dust that turned me to rust
Sooner than later, I need a saviour

I think I'm such a glutton. I snacked on an entire bar of popping chocolate, a packet of gummy bears, milk tea, and attempted t finish a box of Ferrero Rochers LOL. But my mum came back home from her trip t Malaysia and kept the box after I only managed t eat one zzz. Imagine if she found out what I ate before that.. By this rate I'm eating while studying (or attempting t), I'll balloon into some pig :(

Weird how I'm more awake at such weird hours. I tend t think more during late nights. About the what-ifs and what-nots. A MSN conversation just now made me realize some things. Sometimes, I doubt myself too. I don't know if I'm looking forward for school t resume or not. It's going t be a week, I'm surprisingly patient. Maybe not. But seeing it once or a few times daily pulls me through, and which nobody else is able t comprehend :)

I think I've changed quite abit. I prefer more alone times t myself now. I've curbed down on vulgarities. I think much more now. (How I wish I can apply this t schoolwork though =/) I learnt t appreciate the beauty of certain things.

But one thing I'll never learn.. How t break down those walls and tell what you're thinking. Sometimes you look so sad, but.. idk. You seem yet so positive too.