Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains

My sister's hosting a 17-year-old Taiwan girl, so she'll be staying over at my house for 2 nights, Friday & Saturday. Went t google her & found her blog: HERE
Visit her album too, I think she's damn chio
I'm quite scared alrdy leh what if nth t talk t her howwwwwwwwww
(+ she's rich how will she survive at my house lol)

HAPPY (BELATED) BDAY T ANVEA!!!



Wrapped w layer of Jay Chou-s torn out from mags + a layer of toilet paper :D


Happy happy Kuromi

Looks alot like Weihong LOL

Celebrated Anvea's bday after school today, wanted t give surprise but failed -.- after that there was me Anvea Yanci Xiaoxuan Weihong left. Weihong started singing T.T Stayed back w Anvea until 7+, wanted t go home w Pingteck but he was doing Kiw's overdue essay on 文化差异 -.- So me Anvea Yanci Xinqian Boshi took Kiayi's car back w karaoke somemore lol.

Thursday got chemistry & maths common test
Friday & Saturday Taiwan girl (she's called Jiawei) will be staying over
April: month of mugging ):

May: Study, Level Camp @ Kota Tinggi, study, Taiwan trip + June holidays!!! :D

如果他总为别人撑伞
你何苦非为他等在雨中

我什么都能忘记 但唯一不忘是你的名字

Combined school sports day yest, 4B was sitting right infront, exposed t the sun and everything, but the view was very good, just that we have t stand up t see the other side of the track. Shiying was damn good & 4B made banner + a card for her.

But actly I wasn't sunburnt or anything cos me & Kelly went t the back t sit LOL. My eyes were feeling quite pain due t the sun + my eyes were still recovering from ezcema. But the view from there was actly great, cos we can see the whole track from there & there's wind too.

After that went t Singpost w Bev & Gloria for lunch + desserts. Thanks for the spaghetti & fried rice :) Then went t the post office t mail stuff. Went home & overslept, met Bev Gloria Seeting late. Dinner @ Changi Airport T3, everyone ate Popeye's Chicken except for me cos I'm sick ): Got my hoodie also :D

Went over t T2, sat around & chatted. Cheer up Gloria you still have us, 别为了一棵树而放弃了整个森林.

Talked on the phone until v late last night, idk what t do.

Now me & Szuyee are discussing what t buy for Anvea, headache headache, we're both busy + broke people ohno.

The next time you think
you're falling in love,
smash your head into a wall;
it will hurt less in the end.

为你 我做了太多的傻事

Stayed back t chiong maths assignment, then went out w the guys.
Watched Step Up 2, was not bad, just that I'm damn tired, and the dance in the rain was damn nice.
The guy was ok-looking, but I think our relief PE teacher more shuai :D

Combined schools sports day tmr, maybe I can meet Zhihui there :)
Hope the weather will be hot too hot/rainy.
Falling sick, flu/blocked nose + coughing nonstop alrdy boo.
How do I breathe ):



Faking it,
But it hurts on the inside
如果你能听到心碎的声音

偷偷的隐藏著自己

Went t Ikea after school today, got free treats (Swedish meatballs + potato salad!!!)
But in exchange I think I'm getting sore throat, and others don't appreciate potato salad ):

2 people got CS tix from me happy happy but I still have some more t sell.
Me & Kiayi still haven't thought of a design for the poster + booklet, have t stay back tmr and wait for her. I end @ 1.45 and she 2 hours later boohoo T.T

Anvea's bday is coming, idk what t get for her.
Strawberry toilet paper? Strawberry cake? Strawberry candles? Strawberry ______? (HAHA)


Hot guy saying bye t you all :)
(But Chaoyuan thinks he's a typical angmoh who tries t look Asian + looks like a girl -.-)

Numb towards everything, numb towards you

最后的疼爱是手放开

GO VISIT THIS BEFORE READING TY

Yest Carlyn & Jevaun came over w their family & we went t eat Sakura buffet :D
Love the cakes there hehe tho I was feeling damn dulan w my old specs, met Stephanie there too :) Jevaun ordered like 2/3 bowls of laksa LOL. Went t arcade t play & Jevaun went t tap on the bball machine alot of times so we had t play like 5/6 rounds wtf can cry. Came over t my house & we had fun surfing Youtube, they went back only at 1/2+AM.



Went t CO concert today, went t collect my new specs then met Anvea & Quanhuan at Pasir Ris MRT, then went t meet the guys, Kenneth Siantar Szuyee Chaoyuan Zhijie at Marina Square. Got stuffs for the people performing, then cabbed down t VCH.

Szuyee Chaoyuan Zhijie left before us but they arrived later than us -.- they went t buy McChicken but the plastic bag broke & the burger dropped in the rain LOL. All of us were soaked like shit lol, then we only listened t a piece and when the later guys arrived, it was intermission LOL.

Guess what, the CO concert for afternoon session started at 4 & all of us thought it was 4.30, so when everyone was getting seated, we were still shopping -.- Then when the encore finished & people were leaving, we went t shout ENCORE LOL I bet the CO people were O.O at us.

Stayed back t give the people their stuffs, and we stayed till the night session started -.- Chak got brocolli for Serene & yellow capsicum for Daniel, cactus for Prida & some naked babies for others LOL. He went t the jewellery shop t beg for paper bags t make the presents look glam HAHA.

Then went for dinner, but we couldn't make up our minds -.- and we finally decided on Marina Square but couldn't decide where t eat. I think we wasted like 1hr+ deciding where t eat before settling on Jack's Place. Oh & on the way while crossing traffic lights there's one green man who's slanted LOL damn funny.

Almost all of us ate baked rice except for Quanhuan who took pasta cos we're damn broke esp me T.T The guys performed magic tricks, Chaoyuan did the coin trick damn well. Then we started playing w the candles cos it was like some candlelight dinner -.- Anvea went t pluck the flower's petal out and threw into the fire, while Chaoyuan/Zhijie went t burn the garlic bread LOL. Then Anvea poured her iced water into the candle holder then tried t soak the wax water up w tissue, then threw the tissue inside the menu thingy LOL.

We reached home damn late, even later than those who went t the night session can :)
We clicked off quite well tho I'm not really close t some of them & it's like a weird combi too haha.

How I wish everything was still like last year
最后的疼爱是手放开

But you don’t know what you got until it’s gone

Oh great, I broke my specs in less than 2 months, it's just like how I dropped my old less than a week phone into the toilet bowl before.


Damn imba, it snapped into half. Stayed back in school till damn late, went home w 4I/CS people. Rly sorry t Bev Kelly Gloria CK ):

Today's & from few days ago,






So tired, physically & mentally
Eczema, broken specs, broken heart, fugly me + pimples
)':

No wonder Weihong said: "What's broken cannot be fixed back anymore"

Sometimes the truth is just a lie, & sometimes forever runs out of time

Picture post, a picture speaks a thousand words
Not in the mood t blog anw, still have chinese essay t be done













心里的雨倾盆而下

What's wrong, what's getting you down?

Currently listening t Corrinne's May Beautiful Seed album, thanks Adorra! :)

Deleted some posts, cos I found out alot of people actually read my blog & they understand what I'm typing. Think I'll leave the private posts t lj, cos it's friends-only.

Went t see the doctor just now about my eyes. Wtf I have eczema (or wtf the spelling is) around my eyes (!!!) Like wtf others get it around their arms I get it around my eyes -.-

Was trying t send Anvea songs thru bluetooth the whole day but 4B & 4I's too far apart. Stayed back & tried t do chinese essay, but I think I wrote more cock & Chaoyuan had t help me w my first para LOL. Went home w Anvea Bev Seeting Kiayi Ahloo Yixin Shilei Szuyee Chaoyuan Melvin Zhijie. I forgot what happened on the way but I only rmb we tried t make some pole on the MRT -.-

Finally passed a bio test for this year :) Sorry but my sciences suck balls.
Passed my history test too by writing cock about Franz Ferdinand's assassination cos that's the only thing I knew -.-
Getting back maths paper tmr, failed alrdy.

Omg tracy einny has been hacked, I was so looking forward t the next big update D: Got an email from them:

Hey babes,
Our Website tracyeinny.livejournal.com has been hacked !!
WE are unable to log into the account.
Pls do email us @ tracyeinny@hotmail.com to double confirm anything.
Pls do not transfer or buy anything from the website till further notice
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PLS HELP TO SPREAD THE WORD !
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Guess I'm becoming sadistic, I like gloomy bear, skelanimals, ribcages etcetc whatever bye.


Watch it burn
Let it die

It's like candy but with blood which is so much better

Wtf my eyelids are STILL peeling for no reason CCB I'm so gna see a doctor soon *&^%$#@!

Went t Bugis w Anvea Szuyee Yixiang after school, they're all in their pink class tee, I still rmb Szuyee's sec 2 jersey was called student LOL.

Went t Kino omg alot of porno books, there's one w all the *** positions LOL.
Then Anvea got Jordan's bday present & her handphone pouch, then went t Topshop cos Szuyee never been t & he wanted t see see. Can't rmb anything much alrdy, just that my chinese compo is still untouched since I left school.

Kiw keeps commenting about my hair, alrdy cut my fringe short can.
He didn't even say a single thing when my fringe used t cover my eyes zzz,
& I'm not the only one in 4B w fringe covering brows -.-


Gloomy like a gloomy bear
But gloomy bear's so cute, I want one

Seeing you today made me realize
just how far apart we've got.
I hesitated too long to say hello
even though I should have.
I wanted to see how you were doing
but we are strangers now.
You don't know me anymore.
Maybe you don't even want to.
But it's okay,
things are just different now.

I have to lose you to save you

So pretty :)
Featured in April's Seventeen & March's Juice



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Went out w 2j ppl (Kelly Ahlong Sean Ong) + Junhao today, was late but Ahlong was later LOL, arrived at same time as Ong.
Went t get tickets, & they decided t watch Rule #1 omfg wtfwtf I tried t dissuade them but they still bought -.-
& the person didn't even check whether we're 16 anot zzz I was hoping we would get rejected HAHA.

Cos it was early me & Kelly went t get crepes while the guys went t play at the arcade. I was sitting beside some Jap boy, his hair is quite nice omg + he looks damn young!

Then met the guys & went t Heeren t walkwalk, realised all the shops at the top floor & B1 are closed down zzz, cos we wanted t eat Sakae. So went t walk around while the guys went t HMV.

Went t Ajisen for dinner. Wtf Ahlong thought the nearest one was at Plaza Sing & he wanted us t walk there (15 mins only lah -.-) till I told him there's one at Taka. And Chan Yew Long didn't believe me (!!!) Had t call Bev t confirm lol, & Bev was also coicidentally at Cineleisure!

The seating arrangement of Ajisen is like shit, so cramped. Junhao came t join us later. Then the guys started saying Mas Selamat & porno jokes wtfwtf it was damn sick can LOL (what can you expect from Sean & Ahlong)

Ahlong: People improve sex by watching porn, Ong improve sex by eating chilli

Cos Ong was sweaty like he just did sth :) after finishing the ramen. The bill totalled up t almost $100, and wtf should have escaped w the money cos the guys forced me t pay.

Rule #1 was wtfwtfwtf. Ok lah aftly not v scary, but I'm quite freaked out by the sound effects and the gore, the blood, dead bodies and such. But I was covering my eyes & ears like 80% of the show. The guys left early during the show t play LAN WTF, which they gave the movie plot's so cliche as an excuse, but I think they humji LOL. Esp Ong whom I saw covering his ears LOL. But actly not v scary lah now I think, just that some guy wanted revenge on Shawn Yue & he went t possess everyone around him t get him. But the way the people died is freaky, but in some ways, retarded X: But I think if I wake up in the middle of the night I'll still be abit freaked out zzz ):

Kelly had t leave early cos her parents came t fetch her, nvm I got extra free treats from her HEHE.
Realised 4B's homework like so little compared t other class, got chem etcetc. Took train back w Sean Ong Junhao & today was actly the first time talking t Junhao, but surprising it wasn't awkward or anything haha. Junhao's heading home t bathe and then he's going out again. Bet he's gna book a hotel or sth LOL :)

Btw saw alot of girls cosplaying and saw one girl at Pasir Ris MRT w lolita costume bet Zhiming see will get horny hehe.



All I'm asking is don't make promises you can't keep,
and don't say things you don't mean,
because in the end,
those things mean everything.

可是我始终一直原谅你,

Secrets told in the silence of my sin

RIP t my cut fringe, now my fringe's rlyrly straight.




But in a way I'm happy that I cut cos the hair's been covering my eyes like the pics above.
But whenever I look into the mirror I want t cry alrdy, how t step out of the house boohoo. )':
Grow fringe grow.


The sky has been crying the whole day, must be cos of my fringe T.T

Got my belt finally yest from Bev who left it w the drinks stall uncle lol, have t go poke some more holes cos the belt drops when I try t wear it -.-

Btw, I've updated my lj selling post go see :)
Click!

No more making you cry, no more them gray skies

Edit: Talking t Kiayi I think I'm going crazy AHHHHHHHHHHHH sorry haha

Had my last dazu today, my group was ZHU BA JIE wtf lol that time Anvea told me there's such a group I still told her whoever's in that group is damn suay -.-
May be going t Taiwan for free!!! :D
Lunched at Ghim Moh w Kiayi Szuyee Boshi, started raining damn heavily. Me & Kiayi were enjoying kupping desserts from the guys but obviously Kiayi kupped more hehe then we CSI alrdy so went t share one aloe vera jelly :)
Then Szuyee went back t school t deliver bubble teas, Kiayi kept saying that he will fall down on the way back LOL he came back w his hair like he just survived a tornado woah.

Once I reached home, I fell asleep until 8+ so I'm now still in my CS tee.
Going t cut my hair tmr ohno ohno ohno have a bad feeling about my fringe T.T
Going out w 2j ppl somemore on Sat GG
But anw have t cut soon alrdy every teacher/adult who saw me was commenting on my long fringe.
& Mr Teo said my hair was 娃娃头 I rmb lol.

Another $33 gone T.T Thanks V for helping me first hehe :)

Why does the sky keep crying boohoo )': From havent sleep till now still raining~


Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
If this how you want it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

Secrets told in the pictures on your skin

Promoting: Easy nail- polish remover, accessories etc sold by Venecia :)

Me & Kelly went over t Zhiming's house today supposedly t study.
Kelly was damn late I waited for her from no rain t heavy rain then Zhiming's maid had t fetch us LOL.
Had lunch which was 'unripe papaya' soup which the maid said wasn't just that it looked like some papaya.
Asked Zhiming t teach me DotA HAHAHA but I'm damn noob anw.
Wanted t watch shows then went t watch Borat online but got bored of it.
Zhiming gave us F&N mixed w Vodka I think my tolerance level is damn low cos I drank Kelly's one I almost died -.-
Did abit of trigo graphs then left the house, so I practically wasted my whole afternoon in Zhiming's house.

Going back t school tmr for CS dazu, the last one for me.
& I hope the Taiwan trip won't be cancelled, I want t shop the clothes there are like damn cheap hehe :)

So I let you go
And I watch you leave
And I hold my breath
So you don't hear me scream
When you walk away
But the words are only in my head
It's not what I said
It's what I didn't say

You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

Almost broke my specs cos bent it too hard,
there's a crack alrdy omfg trying t persuade my mum for contacts

Went out @ last minute w Kelly Melvin Kenneth Zhiming t Vivo.
Met Comint at Pasir Ris MRT control station, or rather she met me haha.
Went window shopping :)
Got leggings from Topshop which cost a bomb *&^%$#@!
Kene & Zhiming went t get drinks from The Coffee Bean
& Zhiming couldn't finish his so kupped his hehe

Melvin & Kene had t go off first so the rest of us went t have dinner.
Was debating btw BK & LJ (HAHA LANJIAO) but BK was full so went t LJ.
Then went outside t chill & idk why we started talking abt weird stuffs eg. dicks O.O
Then it started drizzling so left & went t Candy Empire cos Zhiming wanted t get his jelly beans & Kelly got dark choc.






Doing blowjob



If you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won’t give up
Cause I’ll be waiting if you fall you know
I’ll be there for you

He broke your heart, he took your soul

I realised when I'm unhappy, my eating speed is like woah.
And I think I can eat 15 meatballs at one go too. ):

When I'm feeling down,
I do maths too.

Want t shop but can't find anything t buy
+ I'm like bloody broke too ):



You know I'll be there for you,
but you won't be there for me

You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rest that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love



真的不知道该如何是好

不知不觉你已经离开我

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Seriously, fuck
I feel like doing crazy things

Misery loves company

Went t choir concert yest, KELLY WAS SICK AT LAST MIN WTFFFFFFFFFF
So CK went instead :)
Guess what. 4B's dear BP uncle teacher is a choir teacher __
Choir's concert was quite good for me, cos it's the first choir concert I've been t haha. But the seats were spoilt LOL.
Got a rose for Sam, the HSM dance was quite funny, w Jiezhi's facial expressions LOL.

On the way back, I dropped 2 coins & some fucker right infront of us went t pick it up & kept it himself. CCB LAH but think it's 20 cents only WTFLOL
Reached home damn late.

Bio test owned me today.
Math's gna own me tmr.
Necklace's arrived :D
But damn I'm still sick

Gonna take what’s mine tonight
Cause every wasted day becomes a wasted chance

Stop & stare

Kelly: This photo? I look so spas haha

Gna bathe in school tmr (COLD WATER OMG) cos choir concert's tmr. Have t chiong bio tmr in sch w Kelly & Seeting alrdy but I want t go t BSP tmr w Bev too hehe.

Hope the necklace & belt will arrive this week :)

Wonder where's Mas Selamat now (HAHA IN ____'S BUSH)

We're not falling in love, we're just falling apart

我真的真的想放棄

EDIT: F'ing shit clinic's closed, hope I don't die by taking TCM which idk isit real or fake med. AND MATHS CIRCULAR MEASURE QUIZ TMR GG + seeing you like that seriously makes me feel like dying alrdy

Raining now
Watching the HSBC golf match live on tv the venue's quite close t Pasir Ris so it's raining there too LOL
Still sick ): flu & cough makes good friends.
I've stuck tissue on my nose and it's been there since the past 10mins hehe
Gna visit the doctor later, don't want t get lung infection again like last year, can die.
When you think life's fucked up, there's someone out there worse than you.
Cheer up tho you won't read my blog :)

CS was fun on Fri, for drama we're supposed t act out fairytales, the skit my group prepared was damn funny.
Nicolette wanted Sleeping Beauty, then we just sleep for 3mins for the skit :)
Szuyee didn't hear of Hansel & Gretel, so he called it Hamster & Crater WTFLOL
& he's gna act as a crow, aft 4 years in CS HAHAHA

Went Vivo aft that w Kelly Bev Glo CK, wanted t watch L but I thought it was too late, so went t have dinner. Dinner @ Secret Recipe was yummy, but couldn't smell anything. THE ONLY THING I COULD SMELL THAT DAY WAS THE BLOODY CHLORINE FUMES DURING CHEM PRACT &^%$#@* Went t Daiso t buy stuffs (FOOD HEHE) then went t the rooftop t chill haha. Played stupid games, did stupid stuffs, gossiped :) Think we took the last train back & by the time I reached home it's ALMOST 1AM I WAS STILL IN SCH U WOAH my mum almost assassinated me LOL


+ loads of failed attempts ha


Kupped from Bev :)
@ Esplanade the day before Fri

Celebrated my cousin's daughter's (AKA MY NIECE why am I so old !!!) bday yest.
Buffet was yummy, but couldn't eat alot of stuffs zzz
The cake was damn humongous (sp?) w loads of bears & alphabets ard


Cousin gave me this slice, tycotyco w HIJ :)

Speaking of tyco:

If I had such luck for gambling




感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能 拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能 变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜