This emptiness is killing me

Barely survived mock 2.4 today
Lunched w Bev & Glo at Marina Square then went t Esplanade
Dying of sore throat and running nose now ):
So going t flunk history tmr, haven't even finished reading a single handout
& life's so fucked up now, nobody bothers t reply my sms wtf

I shouldn't love you,
But I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
But I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop

你的美 已经给了谁

P.S. Jelly bracelets arrived in mail today :)
Need t get some flesh on my arms
Self-reminder: Don't rub my fucking eyes

Passed my maths test, 19/30, but still damn lousy.
& life's isn't getting any better
In fact it's getting more & more fucked up
Tired of keeping secrets for so many ppl but,

Maybe I should just lock myself home for the whole March holidays, fuck
So disappointed w everything

This break down's eating me alive

Can't be bothered t give a fuck t ppl I don't even know -.-
Real sorry if I mentioned names that're not involved w all these shit.
Deleted the previous post, cos I don't want any unwanted attn.

Stayed back aft sch w Anvea Kiayi Szuyee Yijianyi :)
Was playing ard w Yijianyi's laptop though it's damn lag, introduced the China boy t Happy Tree Friends :D
& he's not innocent at all, showed us the porno version of QLX MV (!!!)
Went home w CS ppl + Seeting, my juniors love gossips so much
Going home w CS ppl is damn funny, like Szuyee who was telling us the two guys standing infront of us were gays
& made him take MRT all the way t Pasir Ris
I suggested t share Anvea's bday present w him & he thought of toilet paper LOL
Then he started singing bday songs abt toilet paper on the train wtflol

BTW I SOLD MY CHENGNANJIUSHI AWAY LAST WEEK DURING CS WTFLOL


Love you all :)



My eyes I'm screaming for the sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too

微笑后 表情终于有点难过

Went t eat ramen aft CCA on Fri w Bev Glo Seeting. Got the same place for like, the third time :) Seeting had t leave first, then the three of us went t the Padang, it was pretty, but the cloudy sky initally was abit scary cos we scared got lightning strike TOUCHWOOD LOL. Played emo songs & played funny + exhausting games, w some dog running ard too haha.










Lazy t upload the rest, maybe Glo will upload the rest aft I send the pics t her when she's online.

Went out w V today, the area outside Pasir Ris MRT was damn crowded I thought the MRT broke down again LOL turned out the ppl were all going t the aerospace exhibition. Got stuffs from Pull & Bear then went t Lime flea market & got a dress for only $10! Saw TracyEinny there too :) Then went Cineleisure, Heeren and back t TM. Went t watch Ah Long Pte Ltd DAMN FUNNY OMG. There's a not-so surprise ending but many ppl left alrdy lol. KELLY IF YOU SEE THIS MUST GO WATCH!!!




Told her abt what Bev taught us yest & tried it, successful in a shot!


I love my friends & being w them :)


Don't hold on t the past
There's a reason why it's not coming back

Another night, another dream wasted on you

Screwed up chem test
So gna screw up maths tmr but TGIF :)

怎么隐藏 我的悲伤 失去你的地方
你的发香 散得匆忙 我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛 还能看见 你离去的痕迹
在月光下 一直找寻 那想念的身影

如果说分手 是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前 我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白

我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
又想了一遍你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪模糊了视线
你会看不见

Don't try this at home

Got back bio paper few days ago, failed mine ):
Chem's paper tmr GG, but here's sth t cheer me up HAHAHA



& the same person has such a damn imba answer:


(CLICK T ENLARGE OR YOU'LL REGRET IT)

Shall go study chem :)

When I'm going down don't worry about me

Whenever I see you
I can't help it, I have to smile
But after a bit, i start to hurt
Not cause I've stopped breathing or
Because I've smiled too long,
But because my heart knows the truth.


So give up & let go
Stop fucking dreaming

But every question still has you in

Today is a happy day
cos the new issue of Seventeen is finally out :)

Think I'm so gna flunk my chem & trigo test tho, can't rmb a single shit of chem ):
Nvm jiayoujiayou goodluck t me 8)
Going out w V this weekend if I survive the week hehe damn I'm broke



It's something about the way you shine in the light, you glow,
Bright blue and pink in your cheeks,
I just wanted you to know.
You're not just another fish in the sea to me.

Cause time has got a way of taking back

Visit allthe-love@lj t buy stuffs for/from me! Fund me pls click on the link they're not ex you know you buy stuff for me you don't need give me bday present alrdy lol & I give you belated vday presents handwrapped by me I got extras hehe :)

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the something that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

This week's = GG week, lots of tests & assignments due ):
Shall go do maths notes, feel v motivated t do maths aft having maths tuition :)

Found this online:
Nobody understands how much I miss you, I miss how much we used to talk, & miss all the things we used to do. I try not to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you each day. I still think of you & I really do miss you. I would give up everything I have to be everything we're not.


comm.lj/lovecushion

But the truth that it's cupid

je t'aime,
ti amo,
te quiero,
ik hou van jou,
i love you.
it doesnt matter how you say it,
it matters how much you mean it.

Happy vday ♥
Thanks for the gift & V for the rose!
Sososo busy recently & spent like a bomb for the bday gifts.

Last Saturday Carlyn Jevaun & family came over :D
Was trying t teach them dai di but damn failure lol.
Went t Changi Airport @ 11pm aft having steamboat.
Wtf the shops there closed damn early, went t TCC but overcrowded so went t Macs.


Oreo chessecake is love


'Milk tea'

P.S. Taken in female toilet

Future serial rapist (jkjk)

Not much photos tho.
Btw today was a good day, surprisingly. I love surprises :)



当你说话 时间停止开始慢动作

Scribbled out the truth with their lies

You don't realize how much you
care about someone until they
don't care about you



Feel like buying stuffs online

So what's its for the love and war

Happy cny :) Tho I don't rly feel the mood.

Went out w Bev & Ang earlier t do last min shopping, met Mdm June Loh @ F21 while waiting for Ang (!!!) Wanted t buy this starry scarf @ Pull & Bear but decided t save $20 cos I alrdy have a starry scarf, the glitter drops off & idk how t wear that cos it's quite thick.

Walked from Wisma t Taka t Heeren. Ang is a damn rich kid, he says Esprit clothes are quite cheap!!! But me & Bev agreed he's like 1578236592 times better t shop w than w the Chan brothers (JJ & Zhiming) can cry.

Aft that went t meet my family & my ahma :)
My dad got new hp again, but this time it's those touchscreen & got unlimited Wifi access. Watched the Andy Lau movie on Ch U which was v touching boohoo )':

Anw now I think I'm getting sore throat again omg. Scarly Bev spread t me gna chop off her boobs man 8)

Let me light up the sky
Just for you tonight
Let me help you fly
'Cause you won't have time
To cover your eyes and get your disguise
They won't ask you why, they'll just watch you die

And it's still so hard to be who you are
So you play this part, and the show goes on
That you come this far with a broken heart
Yeah, you come this far and you're broken...

Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me tell you why
I would die for you

I inhale now I'm addicted

Got my new specs, I think it's damn fugly people's gna laugh @ me tmr ):
It's giving me a fucking headache now damn.
Going t get contacts aft my damn eyes stop swelling, but I think I can only wear daily contacts = very seldom can wear D:

Maths test today was like wtf, gna flunk my bio test tmr too, though others say it's common sense, but sadly 4B people doesn't have that. Meeting V tmr :)

Even she said that it's so awkward now, it's so fucking obvious
When there's nothing left t say
What can you do

They're gonna crash and burn

Stayed home whole day cos my mum didn't let me go out, got 2 tests next week :(
My goldfish-like swollen eyes are recovering :D

Let me show you nice stuffs I saw online (but didn't buy like duh I'm saving $$$/they're sold out/I won't even blog about what I bought online LOL)





I also saw giant hersey kisses eat one confirm get diabetes those kind 8)

Anvea & Szuyee told me on the way home yest that all the things I'm trying t do are practically useless, idk. But anw thanks Szuyee for trying t help me & Anvea for those guailan advices. They want me not t be so humji hahaha. Met Esther & Junli at the same bus terminal too, talked t Junli for awhile till his bus came.

It's coming but idk what t do, how
Should I do anything or not